my friends, i want to tell you why i was gone

[hipsage]

hey guys, i know ive been gone a while and i thought i should share with you and have already sent to several people. ok, to kick things off, i want you to know im psyctizoeffective, i.e. deppresion, anxiety, mild trets, and sometimes hallucinations. or you could say im crazy. my life and state of mind, was in shambles, ruled by chaos and confusion, driving me to the point of insanity. i voulenterily check myself into a hospital for about 2 weeks. i would have contacted sooner, but ive been to ashamed to talk about it. when your 12 years old and ask the friends youve always have for help, and they fear you like some kind of monster, it takes a toll on you emotional state. not something you up in conversation. i hope this doesent put any strain on our friendship, but i will understand if you want to walk away. i hope you enjoyed the holidays i missed and it would be nice to hear from anyone. blessings, chris

[Melissa]

I'm sorry you didn't really have anyone to turn to... but I'm glad that you were comfortable enough to still get help for yourself. That takes a strong person, to admit when something's wrong and you need help. :) Don't be ashamed to talk about things - mostly it's just a lack of understanding that keeps people away from those topics, when all they need to do is open up their eyes, ears, minds, and hearts, to understand. I hope that things start to get better for you. If you need anyone to talk to, I'm here. :)

[Hawkeye Greywolf]

im sorry for no one being there... but im happy you loved yourself enough to seek the help you needed... you sound like a very mature person and i will always be a friend of yours

[Witch Daughter of Aradia]

I love this version of Michael Jackson's version of his song, "You Are Not Alone".

Though at times we may feel the lonliness of the world looking in at us, we are not alone -- for there are many in the world who love us for just who we are. You are one of my dearest of friends, Chris; don't you EVER forget it!!!

~Witch Daughter of Aradia~

[Lady Dark Raven]

I am so sorry you had to go through that =( I don't think anyone here will judge you for it - all you have to do now is focus on getting better! =)

[Bobbilyann Cruse]

I know a little how you feel...I have the depression anxiety ect. There's no shame in taking care of yourself. I think you're quite brave for doing so honestly.

It seems that people who haven't experienced it, can't seem to truly understand what you are going though. Not everyone, of course. But from my own experiences, I say that. I found my friends and family completely unable to understand no matter how many times I explained it.

I'm sorry that some of the people close to you acted that way.

[Vulperius Rex]

I am immensely glad that you are feeling better and hope you continue to heal. May the gods walk with you and keep you in the Light.