resting for energy isnt working

[hipsage]

hey everyone, ok so ive posted like 3 other disscusions on having energy imbalance problems. if you havent read, heres the summary, massive gain in spirit energy and dont know why, helped a few people, it went negative and realy freaked me out, couldnt seal it with grounding, crystals or binding, just made it worse. thats when it fed into my emotions, REALY screwed me up. somehow it justed uped and left, didnt leave a note or anything. now i have no energy, just enough for the day, cant raise or intake any. people are telling me to rest and im grateful for everyones support. i just dont know how long i sit and recuperate. it feels so...wierd. no awarness, empath ability, premonitions. i feel helpless and its driving me crazy. for my friends who have posted on the other posts, thanks, and if you give more advice thanks again. just imput something you think can help, id aprieciate it. blessings and namaste, hipsage

[Lady Dark Raven]

Well you also have to understand that things like that come and go as you need it. It could be that you do not need those abilities anymore - you did what you were meant to do with them. I would stop focusing on it, and just try to get yourself balanced. If you are meant to have them again, then you will - only time can fix it.

[hipsage]

thanks everyone, its good to know i have such great friends

[Witch Daughter of Aradia]

I have learned in my many years in the Craft and just in life itself, that we go through many changes and challenges on our path that we cannot always control -- we have to work with them and turn the negative energies into something positive. For example, you mentioned that you feel your empathic energies are no longer with you, that you have lost your abilities.

I want you, if you will, take a moment and get out a good old piece of paper and a pen. Draw a line straight down the middle of the paper. On the left side, title across the center of it "Energetic Activities That Make Me Feel 'Negative' "; and on the right side, title across the center of it "Energetic Activities That Make Me Feel 'Positive' ".

Start with the Negative Energies first -- since the purpose of this is to rid of the negatives first and changing them into the positive. Coming from the standpoint of that in ritual, before we perform a spell or whatnot in our workings, our intentions are that of something positive that we want to manifest in our lives, therefore in order for us to focus on our ritual for our intentions to manifest later on, we rid of our negativities of the day by beginning our ritual meditation in that of seeing our daily stresses, angers, negativities, etc. being dropped off in a well, floating away with envisioned clouds, however one rids of their 'blockages' that would cause our ritual to not perform well.

So begin listing all the active things you do in your life on the right side of the paper that make you feel down, depressed, angered, anything that is negative to you in your life that you want to rid of but need that extra push to get going. By doing this and writing this out, you can begin seeing just where your actions are taking a negative stance in your path. Say you write something like "I am angered that I cannot control my empathic energies anymore, and can do nothing in my will to feel any awarenesses anymore." Then take a moment to break what you wrote down. Think about these things in your mind: what things are making you angry in your life? is it really necessary to 'control' your energies instead of just letting them flow freely and dealing with them as they come? what things are getting in the way with your empathic energy flow? why can't you feel any awareness anymore?

After you have taken a moment to think about the things you have written down, take one thing at a time and feel within yourself how you can change the negative activities into positive ones for yourself. This is what you will manifest on the right side of your paper under the postive. Take from for instance the quote above that you had written on the first line under your negatives, "I am angered that I cannot control my empathic energies anymore, and can do nothing in my will to feel any awarenesses anymore." On the right side of the paper, turning this quoted action into a positve action, you may write something like: "I will not let my anger I have of my empathic energies control me anymore. I am in charge of me and will only allow myself to feel aware of what I have to offer through my empathies to myself and others and that it is a positive action that I will take."

Envision, then, the positive energy you have written down on the right side of your paper, in your mind's eye. See yourself satisfied (opposed to being angered) with yourself in control over your empathic energies, feel that you are happy (opposed to being depressed or sad), see in your mind's eye that your empathic energies are flowing freely and working in positive directions throughout your body, like the blood in our very veins that keep us alive and living. Envision yourself being the empath that you are, flowing with these positive energies, being able to live your life as an empath, see yourself (literally) helping in guiding others with your abilities, visualize yourself conquering anything negative that has appeared with all the love that you have inside yourself, your aura and glow within and as well around you, see the beauty of it all in yourself and others. Run a few affirmations through your mind as well: I am an empath. I hold positvie energies within. I am aware of all that is around me that I need to see. I will no longer freak out. I can ground myself like a tree is grounded into Mother Earth. Crystals and binding are helping me with what I need to accomplish. I have much energy and can use it when called upon. I am revived. I am aware. I AM an empath with positive abilities. My premonitions are energetic. I can help myself and am myself, there is nothing more to me than what I am. I am not crazy, but wild and free and energetic to my abilities. I am free from negativity.

For they say the more we think and ponder and dwell on either negative or positive actions -- sometimes when we do it for so long, it comes about manifesting and really happens. In one of my college courses years ago, I had a teacher that told us a story about a woman who couldn't get pregnant. So she began visualizing herself as having the 'seed' planted in her womb. She imagined becoming pregnant and had actually envisioned everything through a pregnancy that a woman would in reality would go through, and her bodily functions actually participated in this action she took and went through the same things as a pregnant woman would. Her menstrual cycle stopped for nine months and her whole body, listening to what this lady was thinking in her thought-forms of actually being pregnant, took affect on her and manifested as if it were really happening.

Chris, like Dark Raven mentioned that you maybe don't need these abilities anymore.....if this is true, your body, heart, and soul will 'show' you this -- like what you have been going through -- and maybe you need to just accept this, if you truly feel it is true for YOU, and ask for guidance and patience and for signs to show up so that you can see where you are going next on your journey.

It is not the destination or the purpose of your journey, it is the journey itself that one travels and learns on.

Blessings, and hope this makes sense as well as helps or guides you in some way.
Take care, and Namaste, Hippy.
)O( Witch Daughter of Aradia

[Ms whitestang]

Idk if this will help, but I can relate. I seem to be "being drained" of my empathic ability. I am finding this is leaving me quite upset and emotional. I normally am very energetic during the new moon but I felt not a thing. I am hoping this is temporary as you are. I keep meditating and having quiet time to commune with my goddess. I keep asking her to bless my once again. I just wanted you to know that you are not alone.

[Hawkeye Greywolf]

i think you chakaras are out of balance and you minds eyes is wounded...

balance you chakaras with either, quartz, coal, or cobalt...
then make some cherry tea... dont buy this type of tea... you need to harvest the leaves and put an offering down to the tree... bless the tea in the name of the god goddess and watchtowers while stiring an anhk into the tea... if need be sweeten with honey... keep the intent in you mind while blessing the tea and stiring... the intent would be to heal you magickal self... repeat for 3 days....

if this does not work message me...

it sounds like you were wounded and something is takeing your energy before you even receive it for you own use...

from spirit walking (im a shaman) for people and asking questions... i have attracted lots of negative energies... i think this will work... i will look for why you have lost you powers... my next journey is for you.

[Hawkeye Greywolf]

oh.. forgot.. dry the cherry leaves on a clothes hanger for a day were the sun and the moon can make contact... then take the leaves chop them up put the leaves in a coffee filter and close it and use it like a tea bag

[hipsage]

thank you. its good to know i have great friends watching out for me.