Cristina colon's Blog (3)

OKAY, SO I HAVE ENLISTED THE HELP OF AN ONLINE WICCAN SCHOOL AND HAVE A GOOD BEGINNER'S BOOK BUT I FIND MYSELF HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME WITH CONTROLING MY EMOTIONS SO IT MAKES THE TREE EXCERCISE DURING MY MEDITATION NEXT TO IMPOSSIBLE!! CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME GET A GRIP? I START TO MEDITATE AND BREATH AND IM SO ANXIOUS AND NERVOUS AND EXCITED ALL IN ONE AND CAN'T CONCENTRATE NO MATTER HOW QUIET, IF I HAVE MED MUSIC ON, SOFT LIGHT THE WHOLE 9 BUT I CAN'T CALM MYSELF!! IT'S FRUSTRATING! I MIGHT… Continue

I'VE BEEN DOING EVEN MORE RESEARCH ON ALEISTER AND WOW HE WAS VERY INTRESTING! I UNFORTUNATELY CONFUSED HIM WITH ANTON LAVEY-(NO DISRESPECT MEANT AT ALL.) THE ORDER OF THE GOLDEN DAWN ALSO WAS HOST TO OTHER FAMOUS PEOPLE LIKE THE POET WILLIAM YATES! I DO WONDER HOWEVER IF THE "MYTH" ABOUT HIM POSSIBLY FATHERING BARBARA BUSH IS TRUE? I AM ALSO LEARNING MORE ABOUT TARA- THE MORE I KNOW THE MORE I ADORE HER. i'VE BEN WAITING FOR HER BUT I THINK MAYBE SHE IS FOR SOMEONE ELSE. I'M NOT ANGRY BECAUSE I… Continue

hey you all! so i've started reading and doing research i'm slowly learning new and wonderful things! the problem is i was raised christian all my life ( till 2-3 years ago) and these ideas are VEERRYY diffrent but wildly exciting and i'm having a blast learning intresting new things but i feel a nagging sensation it's wrong but it feels right in my heart! i always feel at total peace when i spend time with nature- at ease, safe, even loved by my surroundings so how can it be wrong to wanna give… Continue